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i'm busy. period.
no, not because of studies. because of activities.
the few first 2 weeks at lendu was exhausting because it was boring. all of sudden now, frm one thing to another. gosh, everything come all at once. why !
damn it.

nt only that, during puasa, we're not gnna get the chance to go back home. cause we have classes on saturday. the reason was to give the students go back early for raya.

argh, raya..
i rather celerate raya late, rather having class on saturday. damn it.
why my life sucks to the very bottom.

so nt in the mood now. i only have few minutes left to get ready to class.
and i have even take a shwer.
so not in the mood to go to class...

go away stomachache ! go away pain ! :(


ps; fr the first time i smiled dreaming of u in my sleep.
and for the first time, i actually want you to stay that way.
and for the first time, i wish that this is the last time i ever dream of u again.
seriously, scary.. -____-'
i actually prefer seeing u in person.
i think.. LOL

FASYA
xoxo

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honestly, you're giving me a subliminal message, is that it ?
cause i kind of get the 'POINT'.
get it ?

fine, it's the end. i get it.
finito.
sheesh, now i can actually yell if the past actually comes and haunts me back. cause now, i have a solid reason to NOT LET MEMORIES BREAK ME DOWN OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
heh

and all that crap, i'm not buying it anymore.
why, i can hardly believe that you can actually say you care about me with a straight face in front of me.

i actually think that if i ever look straight in your eyes i might cried my eyes out unwillingly.
so i'm afraid i have to avoid from ever catching the glimpse of you.

see how much this hurts ?
never mind, this will grow on me. vulnerable.
honestly, i can't say that i'm happy if you're happy anymore.
cause that is just so fake, dear.

so, all i can say is, take care.
thats all. nothing more.
so goodbye, let this be the last post i'll ever write for you.
but if i ever do this shit again, heh
enough said.

What happened
After last summer
When we broke up
In September

I haven't seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
That's the best
I can do for you

Cuz you'll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah it's hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start



ps; just gonna stand there and watch me BURN.
just gonna stand there and let me CRY.


FASYA
xoxo

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the thing is,
i should be grateful.
i should be happy, i should be content with where i am standing now.
but i just don't get it.

why do this tears keep falling ?
why do this heart stop beating when hearing a song that reminds of a moment, a place and a person ?

and then every time you go through a hard phase, you end up wishing that what if you didn't made that choice and you wish you could turn back time before everything happen and relive to do it differently ?

but doesn't that mean you regret ?

but why am i regretting for ?
did i made that choice ?
did i choose to be in this situation ?

i keep asking myself that.
or i was wrong to let it escape from my hand.
should i have fight for what i want ?
but does it work if they were the one to release us first ?

god, i've been holding on to this, and yet i'm still holding the glimpse of their memory with me eventhough..

they're gone..


gosh, i'm still young.
Allah, give me strength to keep going on.
give me faith that things will get better in time.
give me hope that they are better off without me.
or I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM.
ok, i lied on the last part. don't do that. i beg of you. i take that words back and swallow each one of it.

cause i miss them dearly.
so bad that i can't breathe when i think about them.


sigh, i need to get busy.
i need to stop getting emo again.



oh did you know ?
i'm the assistant mama level.
woot woot, go fasya ^.^

thx for trusting me :3


oh and i'm the class rep too !
gosh, they still love me :')

i promise to do my best !
and i will not crash like last sem >,<


ok, lets get busy and start being professional :)

ps;I LOVE YOU.


FASYA
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my new baby :3
bought it with my own sweats :P (hypothetically :P)



no more wire ! no more earphones getting stuck between things ! no more wire being pulled !
no more phone crashing through the ground !
and NO MORE BROKEN EARPHONE !

because comes EVOLUTION !

headset :)

i went to sunway, "takde jual la dik"
went to One Utama, "kene order la tapi lambat"
went to KLCC, "brand nokia ?"

i almost gave up, well no, i didn't, i just said it to dramatize :P
i check nokia's website for malaysia's version. and i check the local stores that are qualified by nokia near shah alam.
there were 4 !

one was at Plaza Alam Sentral, one was at SACC, one was at Ole-Ole, and one was at some sek 13 i think.
but unfortunately the sek 13 had no contact number.
so it leaves only three.

so i called in order of that list.
first, Ole-ole.

the girl who works there were SO RUDE. pfft she didnt even said hello. and she hangup even before i could say thank you. pfft
and SHE SAID I HAD TO GO TO KLANG TO LOOK FOR THIS. HAH ! i got it at shah alam. boo you X(

called SACC, EVEN RUDER ! chinese !
OMG ! i'm not being prejudice ! but seriously, isn't anybody wants to work this day ? cause the service sucks. seriously ! :(
but still no sign of headset :(


i pray so bad that this would be the one.
PLAZA ALAM SENTRAL :)

me: oh hello ? is this ashita communication ?
girl: oh yes. siapa ini ? (chinese)
me: i'm *, i want to know if you are selling this model.
girl: oh ok let me check for you okay ? can you leave your contact number. because i need to call the main branch.
me: oh ok :)


i had high hopes. i waited for 3 days. but still no sign of her calling me back :(
so i called the place again.
the same girl ! i know, because her voice was identical.

she was like nervous as if she forgots all about my headset request, so she promised to call me back after she got the confirmation.
i waited patiently, i said ok.


while i was onlining, suddenly !

*PLAZA ALAM SENTRAL NOKIA calling*

wee :D! eventhough i was actually waiting for acai's call, but i was happy anyway, cause it was about my headset !


girl: fasya is it ? yeah, we have that model, awak mahu order ka ? boleh dapat esok lo klu mao.



ALHAMDULILLAH :)


i actually called her back again just to make sure it was the right model.
and we actually had laughs that time. LOL

me: ni model tu kan, bukan model yg lain kan, model yg back, xde wire, and warna putih kan ?
girl: oh miss mao warna lain ka ?
me: err model ni ada warna lain ke ?
girl: oh. ah. xda. haha
me: haha okay XD



see, now thats friendly service man :)


i can jog with confident now :P
oh yeah, its splash resistant did you know ? that means i can jog in the rain X)

but i have to cover my handphone though -___-'
LOL


ok then, off to bed. had a wonderful day today :)
will get right back to it soon :)

ps; abg :)
:'>


BUNNY
xoxo

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dalam proses mengemas bilik.
bwh katil, sudah gali = checked.
setiap penjuru katil lap habuk2 yg dah berkumpul = checked.
almari = TOTALLY CHECKED *_______*

fuh.. sedang berehat seketika dan menarik nafas yang panjang kerana hampir berjaya me..

*ding dong*

em ? oh ada org kat bwh, jap kene bukak pintu.
*turun bwh dgn malas. naik atas dgn air mcd coca cola semlm*

lol, dgn jelas nya saya menerangkan :)
ah.. so nice.. after a hard work, drinking a water makes it fresh :)

*slurp slurp*

nah, saje nak buat kamu semua tergiur :)
eh jap, i tak minum coca cola -___-'



anyway, back to what i was going to write,
almost succeeding in cleaning up my room. no more dusty bed or dusty floor.
now i'm just taking a minute to rest and continue cleaning up my books and table.

the fun part about cleaning up is that you'll never know what you'll find :)
i mean not the gross stuff.
i mean like when you thought you misplaced it but it's actually there. yeah :

and and when you almost forgotten the existence of that something but then you found it stuck between some things and you suddenly went smiling and tears prickled on you cheeks cause it reminds you one of those sweet memories that you wish you could relive.
lol now thats long.

but still, yeah. you know what i mean right ? :)



oh god, i'm sore.
this shows that i haven't done this in awhile -___-'


oh and the reason i'm slurping this coca cola is because the gas is already gone, so its not carbonated anymore :)
i hate carbonated drinks -___-'
except for ice cream soda ! :D

i miss drinking it :(
i miss alot of things -____-'



actually ! *just remembered what was the reason i wanted to wrote this post*

i was going to write down what happen just now.
well not like detailed.
i just want to strut out few things.

look,
this is my life.
i can be with anyone i want to be.
i know you raised me up to be a good girl, to live up to your high expectations.

the problem is, it's my turn to make you proud, so let me do it my way please ?
i'm not trying to be disrespectful or anything.
it's just that i respect you too much that i appreciate what you have done for me.
so in return i just want you to sit back and see what i can do.
and that you have raised me well enough to know what is right and what is wrong.

i make mistakes. thats normal, but that doesn't mean i don't know that it was wrong.


and seriously, I'M STILL YOUNG !
for goodness sake, i'm not even at the point where i am qualify to say i can get marry right now.
so please, leave out those relationship out!

you can conquer my studies life, my friendship life, my social life, my work life, BUT! not my love life.


it's hard enough to go around when you make your own decision for my own future life.
you don't need to add more pain on how to live my life with whom.

but i'll wait for that one day, when you guys will truly understand and accept me for who i am :)

don't worry, i'll go along with this, even though it hurts.
i mean, who doesn't feel alil bit pissed off when you guys choose the person who left me out instead of the person who is standing next to me.


but still, like i said, i'm still young.
things could change.

i just hope that, that change is for the better, no ? :)


ps; i was kinda hoping that maybe, well wishing, wondering, that.. yeah, you know..
well.. we could.. you know..
err.. well..
oh forget it -___-'
i'm so helpless *__*


FASYA
xoxo

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GOOOOOOD MORNING !
i woke up early today with hopes and dreams that my parents will allow me to go out and unground me haha XD

oh well, i have few days left for me to 'hangout' in Shah Alam.
sigh, eventhough i'm excited to go to Lendu, i feel abit sad for not getting the chance to meet up with old friends again.

i mean, i missed alot of people, ira :) whom i haven't yet to met. god i promise to see her. sigh...

and ex-schoolmates, i really wish i could go and see my exform6 friends :(

and and SMKS9 :(

sigh..

i missed alot of people. and every time i think how far apart we are now, it just brings me to tears.
and i feel even more worse to realise that i didn't do anything to fix it, or couldn't.
sigh..

oh, life must move on, right ?



god, i miss my bestfriends and all.
*holding back tears*


ok, start off the day with a smile people ! :D
and the whole world will smiles back at you :)

oh oh and i bet you're wondering why i am so happy today ?
well, there's no specific reason actually, its just that i want to make the best of my life :)

and no, nothing happen, nothing particular.

i just felt like i should be grateful once in awhile.
i mean just sit back, watch the world... and enjoy it :)


i mean yeah i had my bad times and all, but why would i want to sacrifice all of my happy moments just because of it, right ? :)


so yeah, just live your life peeps ! ;)

well then, off to do summer cleaning up :)
toodleloo :)



ps; you will always be the one.
"if nothing is everything, would you be my nothing ?"
*holding back tears*
:)

FASYA
xoxo

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i'm busy. period.
no, not because of studies. because of activities.
the few first 2 weeks at lendu was exhausting because it was boring. all of sudden now, frm one thing to another. gosh, everything come all at once. why !
damn it.

nt only that, during puasa, we're not gnna get the chance to go back home. cause we have classes on saturday. the reason was to give the students go back early for raya.

argh, raya..
i rather celerate raya late, rather having class on saturday. damn it.
why my life sucks to the very bottom.

so nt in the mood now. i only have few minutes left to get ready to class.
and i have even take a shwer.
so not in the mood to go to class...

go away stomachache ! go away pain ! :(


ps; fr the first time i smiled dreaming of u in my sleep.
and for the first time, i actually want you to stay that way.
and for the first time, i wish that this is the last time i ever dream of u again.
seriously, scary.. -____-'
i actually prefer seeing u in person.
i think.. LOL

FASYA
xoxo

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honestly, you're giving me a subliminal message, is that it ?
cause i kind of get the 'POINT'.
get it ?

fine, it's the end. i get it.
finito.
sheesh, now i can actually yell if the past actually comes and haunts me back. cause now, i have a solid reason to NOT LET MEMORIES BREAK ME DOWN OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
heh

and all that crap, i'm not buying it anymore.
why, i can hardly believe that you can actually say you care about me with a straight face in front of me.

i actually think that if i ever look straight in your eyes i might cried my eyes out unwillingly.
so i'm afraid i have to avoid from ever catching the glimpse of you.

see how much this hurts ?
never mind, this will grow on me. vulnerable.
honestly, i can't say that i'm happy if you're happy anymore.
cause that is just so fake, dear.

so, all i can say is, take care.
thats all. nothing more.
so goodbye, let this be the last post i'll ever write for you.
but if i ever do this shit again, heh
enough said.

What happened
After last summer
When we broke up
In September

I haven't seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
That's the best
I can do for you

Cuz you'll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah it's hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start



ps; just gonna stand there and watch me BURN.
just gonna stand there and let me CRY.


FASYA
xoxo

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the thing is,
i should be grateful.
i should be happy, i should be content with where i am standing now.
but i just don't get it.

why do this tears keep falling ?
why do this heart stop beating when hearing a song that reminds of a moment, a place and a person ?

and then every time you go through a hard phase, you end up wishing that what if you didn't made that choice and you wish you could turn back time before everything happen and relive to do it differently ?

but doesn't that mean you regret ?

but why am i regretting for ?
did i made that choice ?
did i choose to be in this situation ?

i keep asking myself that.
or i was wrong to let it escape from my hand.
should i have fight for what i want ?
but does it work if they were the one to release us first ?

god, i've been holding on to this, and yet i'm still holding the glimpse of their memory with me eventhough..

they're gone..


gosh, i'm still young.
Allah, give me strength to keep going on.
give me faith that things will get better in time.
give me hope that they are better off without me.
or I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM.
ok, i lied on the last part. don't do that. i beg of you. i take that words back and swallow each one of it.

cause i miss them dearly.
so bad that i can't breathe when i think about them.


sigh, i need to get busy.
i need to stop getting emo again.



oh did you know ?
i'm the assistant mama level.
woot woot, go fasya ^.^

thx for trusting me :3


oh and i'm the class rep too !
gosh, they still love me :')

i promise to do my best !
and i will not crash like last sem >,<


ok, lets get busy and start being professional :)

ps;I LOVE YOU.


FASYA
xoxo

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my new baby :3
bought it with my own sweats :P (hypothetically :P)



no more wire ! no more earphones getting stuck between things ! no more wire being pulled !
no more phone crashing through the ground !
and NO MORE BROKEN EARPHONE !

because comes EVOLUTION !

headset :)

i went to sunway, "takde jual la dik"
went to One Utama, "kene order la tapi lambat"
went to KLCC, "brand nokia ?"

i almost gave up, well no, i didn't, i just said it to dramatize :P
i check nokia's website for malaysia's version. and i check the local stores that are qualified by nokia near shah alam.
there were 4 !

one was at Plaza Alam Sentral, one was at SACC, one was at Ole-Ole, and one was at some sek 13 i think.
but unfortunately the sek 13 had no contact number.
so it leaves only three.

so i called in order of that list.
first, Ole-ole.

the girl who works there were SO RUDE. pfft she didnt even said hello. and she hangup even before i could say thank you. pfft
and SHE SAID I HAD TO GO TO KLANG TO LOOK FOR THIS. HAH ! i got it at shah alam. boo you X(

called SACC, EVEN RUDER ! chinese !
OMG ! i'm not being prejudice ! but seriously, isn't anybody wants to work this day ? cause the service sucks. seriously ! :(
but still no sign of headset :(


i pray so bad that this would be the one.
PLAZA ALAM SENTRAL :)

me: oh hello ? is this ashita communication ?
girl: oh yes. siapa ini ? (chinese)
me: i'm *, i want to know if you are selling this model.
girl: oh ok let me check for you okay ? can you leave your contact number. because i need to call the main branch.
me: oh ok :)


i had high hopes. i waited for 3 days. but still no sign of her calling me back :(
so i called the place again.
the same girl ! i know, because her voice was identical.

she was like nervous as if she forgots all about my headset request, so she promised to call me back after she got the confirmation.
i waited patiently, i said ok.


while i was onlining, suddenly !

*PLAZA ALAM SENTRAL NOKIA calling*

wee :D! eventhough i was actually waiting for acai's call, but i was happy anyway, cause it was about my headset !


girl: fasya is it ? yeah, we have that model, awak mahu order ka ? boleh dapat esok lo klu mao.



ALHAMDULILLAH :)


i actually called her back again just to make sure it was the right model.
and we actually had laughs that time. LOL

me: ni model tu kan, bukan model yg lain kan, model yg back, xde wire, and warna putih kan ?
girl: oh miss mao warna lain ka ?
me: err model ni ada warna lain ke ?
girl: oh. ah. xda. haha
me: haha okay XD



see, now thats friendly service man :)


i can jog with confident now :P
oh yeah, its splash resistant did you know ? that means i can jog in the rain X)

but i have to cover my handphone though -___-'
LOL


ok then, off to bed. had a wonderful day today :)
will get right back to it soon :)

ps; abg :)
:'>


BUNNY
xoxo

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dalam proses mengemas bilik.
bwh katil, sudah gali = checked.
setiap penjuru katil lap habuk2 yg dah berkumpul = checked.
almari = TOTALLY CHECKED *_______*

fuh.. sedang berehat seketika dan menarik nafas yang panjang kerana hampir berjaya me..

*ding dong*

em ? oh ada org kat bwh, jap kene bukak pintu.
*turun bwh dgn malas. naik atas dgn air mcd coca cola semlm*

lol, dgn jelas nya saya menerangkan :)
ah.. so nice.. after a hard work, drinking a water makes it fresh :)

*slurp slurp*

nah, saje nak buat kamu semua tergiur :)
eh jap, i tak minum coca cola -___-'



anyway, back to what i was going to write,
almost succeeding in cleaning up my room. no more dusty bed or dusty floor.
now i'm just taking a minute to rest and continue cleaning up my books and table.

the fun part about cleaning up is that you'll never know what you'll find :)
i mean not the gross stuff.
i mean like when you thought you misplaced it but it's actually there. yeah :

and and when you almost forgotten the existence of that something but then you found it stuck between some things and you suddenly went smiling and tears prickled on you cheeks cause it reminds you one of those sweet memories that you wish you could relive.
lol now thats long.

but still, yeah. you know what i mean right ? :)



oh god, i'm sore.
this shows that i haven't done this in awhile -___-'


oh and the reason i'm slurping this coca cola is because the gas is already gone, so its not carbonated anymore :)
i hate carbonated drinks -___-'
except for ice cream soda ! :D

i miss drinking it :(
i miss alot of things -____-'



actually ! *just remembered what was the reason i wanted to wrote this post*

i was going to write down what happen just now.
well not like detailed.
i just want to strut out few things.

look,
this is my life.
i can be with anyone i want to be.
i know you raised me up to be a good girl, to live up to your high expectations.

the problem is, it's my turn to make you proud, so let me do it my way please ?
i'm not trying to be disrespectful or anything.
it's just that i respect you too much that i appreciate what you have done for me.
so in return i just want you to sit back and see what i can do.
and that you have raised me well enough to know what is right and what is wrong.

i make mistakes. thats normal, but that doesn't mean i don't know that it was wrong.


and seriously, I'M STILL YOUNG !
for goodness sake, i'm not even at the point where i am qualify to say i can get marry right now.
so please, leave out those relationship out!

you can conquer my studies life, my friendship life, my social life, my work life, BUT! not my love life.


it's hard enough to go around when you make your own decision for my own future life.
you don't need to add more pain on how to live my life with whom.

but i'll wait for that one day, when you guys will truly understand and accept me for who i am :)

don't worry, i'll go along with this, even though it hurts.
i mean, who doesn't feel alil bit pissed off when you guys choose the person who left me out instead of the person who is standing next to me.


but still, like i said, i'm still young.
things could change.

i just hope that, that change is for the better, no ? :)


ps; i was kinda hoping that maybe, well wishing, wondering, that.. yeah, you know..
well.. we could.. you know..
err.. well..
oh forget it -___-'
i'm so helpless *__*


FASYA
xoxo

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GOOOOOOD MORNING !
i woke up early today with hopes and dreams that my parents will allow me to go out and unground me haha XD

oh well, i have few days left for me to 'hangout' in Shah Alam.
sigh, eventhough i'm excited to go to Lendu, i feel abit sad for not getting the chance to meet up with old friends again.

i mean, i missed alot of people, ira :) whom i haven't yet to met. god i promise to see her. sigh...

and ex-schoolmates, i really wish i could go and see my exform6 friends :(

and and SMKS9 :(

sigh..

i missed alot of people. and every time i think how far apart we are now, it just brings me to tears.
and i feel even more worse to realise that i didn't do anything to fix it, or couldn't.
sigh..

oh, life must move on, right ?



god, i miss my bestfriends and all.
*holding back tears*


ok, start off the day with a smile people ! :D
and the whole world will smiles back at you :)

oh oh and i bet you're wondering why i am so happy today ?
well, there's no specific reason actually, its just that i want to make the best of my life :)

and no, nothing happen, nothing particular.

i just felt like i should be grateful once in awhile.
i mean just sit back, watch the world... and enjoy it :)


i mean yeah i had my bad times and all, but why would i want to sacrifice all of my happy moments just because of it, right ? :)


so yeah, just live your life peeps ! ;)

well then, off to do summer cleaning up :)
toodleloo :)



ps; you will always be the one.
"if nothing is everything, would you be my nothing ?"
*holding back tears*
:)

FASYA
xoxo

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