"I'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me."
But it hurts even more by pretending, doesn't it?
So I finished watching Once Upon A Time season 1, just to know that the ending was incomplete, and for me to know what happens next, I need to watch the 2nd season.
Can't blame the production. I mean, 'We can't give them every lil details. It ruins the mystery and the desire to continue to be loyal to the series.'
Yeah, I think I get that. Haha
I love the fact that they really tried so hard to make it as logical as possible to the fairy tale. Of course there are twists of the stories and it has a lot of conflicts, more than I can actually handle. Buuuuuut... the story really moved me.
Though I am all against having an affair, I made an exception for this story because Ginnifer was playing the role of Snow White :p
I must say my gegurl crush towards her really cloud my perception.
But it doesn't change the fact that having an affair is still WRONG.
"You must be so lonely that only the suffering of others can make you happy."
Well as always, or as a typical girl, I do relate myself to the story and find myself thinking I am the heroin of the story.
Oh prince charming..
To meet someone who meant everything to you, yet only to find you both are just not meant to be. Why do we fall to one another only to get separated?
Yeah, I'm pretty much blabbering right now.
So yeah, Goodnight.
Whereever/whoever you are reading this, just know that.. You're not alone. I'm lonely. But I'm not alone. I'm with you :)
And sometimes, you just gotta let it go. Cause God knows whats best for you.
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.
Right now I just need to distance myself from love to see who is willing enough to break down these walls.
I can't do this anymore. I've been hurt for far too long. I've given many chances to the wrong people.
I've let myself be loved and treated wrongly. No one can love me like I love myself.
If being alone is what it takes, then so be it.
I'm done. I fear everything due to all the pain that was inflicted in me. Now I just want to feel happy again. Like closing my eyes and feeling the raindrops on my hands one by one..
A man once taught me what love really means. I'm just thankful that at least I'd learned something. And maybe when the time comes, I will be able to tell if its love or just.. loneliness :)
They were right, it is best to loved and lost.
To appreciate the next opportunity when it comes.
I'm scared... sad.. lonely.. but I know I'll get through this. Just like.. old times :')
There's no more tears left to cry. Thats how much it hurts me.
Like everyone is out to get me... like I'm living in my own nightmare in reality.
I really want to cry right now. Like my heart is pounding and aching and my eyes are burning in fear, pain and suffering.
but I realised that I have cried over and over again until there's no more tears left.
Memories... What I miss the most is memories..
It's haunting me.. the face, the place, the feeling, the moment.. the touch..
Goodnight.. at least i know i'm not alone.
scared, sad... and lonely is accompanying me :')
ps; walking towards the future, with my heart chained to your memories...
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.