and challenging day of my LIFE, seriously i could release tantrums at anybody on that day.
ya Allah nasib baik Allah lembut kan hati hamba yang lemah ni :)
plus every bad day has it's good thing right? i think haha, well not really, but for the first time, everything just seems RIGHT when it became TOTALLY wrong X) ok i'm totally bable-ing, on with the SHOW haha
meaning blog -_-"
in the morning;
my far away cuzin was it? i think so yeah,
i don't even KNOW dude
our family are so complicated X)
notetoself; YOU can't married cousin, haha cause it will cause major PROBS X)
well thats for me :D
well not that i plan to, since i'm taken ;) haha
prasan nyer aku ni -_-"
so in the morning got to get ready to pick up atok, since he always nags that we're gonna be late
pfft yeah rite, we'll see O_O
WELCOME TO SELAYANG :D
this is few of my cuzzies from my mother's side
anak2 MAK UDA n PAK UDA
my grandpapa, mama's daddy
the guy who was singing that time were giving a tribute to my grandpapa
atok mintak dia nyanyi X) haha
eventually he did :D
NEK LANG CRIED WHEN SHE HUGGED ME, why?
we'll always be there for her? whats going on?
i hate it when adults still treating me like a child, i mean cmon! tell me whats going on here!!
i met with few of my cousins from my dad's side
thats when the fun start haha
GOD, i don't care anymore if everyone thinks i act like a kid even if i'm already 17
i LOVE playing tag with my little tele-tubbies cuzzies! :D
no wonder i'm never into adults crisis -_-"
hantam la :D
jot, napa x jumpa kamu? :/
anyway after the wedding, got like a BIG crisis
i HATE CANCELLING PLANS
i swear, I HATE IT SO MUCH
so note to EVERYBODY; if you want to cancel something, better talk to me before i go berserk finding out that i was already there but you CANCELLED saying YOU CAN'T make it
except if you REALLY HAVE A GOOD excuse pfft
or BETTER YET, TRY PLANNING FIRST, before confirming something that is SO UNSURE
how about that? life is all about time, so prepare DUH
oh one more thing, DON'T TRY TO ruin my plans
i swear to you, the nite when farhah ask me can i hangout with her family,
i SCREAMED haha :D gembira sgt x elok fsya -_-"
i think i released my stress and tantrums to everybody in the house,
DUDE, its like ages i haven't seen my BESTIE
how do heck i can NOT get all HYPER X)
plus she needs to explain herself pfft
and ada family nk belanja, haih mana boleh tolak :D hehe
so anyway, ALHAMDULILLAH
it work out in the end :)
and after the wedding, i waited and waited for farhah and her family to pick me up
ok, most of the bloggers already know about farhah, i mean i TALK ALOT about her
kan? kan? :D
we don't really lookalike, but we are alike in MANY MANY ways, trust me, we are :)
jinx we are haha :D
you can check it out at my loved ones on the left side bar.
kan kan? haha ish3 fasya.. fasya -_-"
tak bersyukur langsung, haha
nah just kidding, i'm grateful for who i am and what i am,
and my friends are MUCH MORE PRETTIER than me :)
time; 4.45 pm
farhah and her family picked me up at my house,
we went for to santai, damansara to eat
since farhah and her family haven't had their lunch :)
and then we went to the curve,
it was a go along plan haha
but it was fun :)
they treat me bowling, movies and TGI friday wee :)
i HAVEN'T played bowling for 5 years, i swear to YOU
and apparently i suck for the first two tries X)
sengal, farhah mcm pro plak!
but its not far, she didn't run,
she walk to the front line and toss it like hell fast
THATS NOT FAIR
yes farhah, i am TAKING THIS TILL THE END OF TIME :P
it IS NOT FAIR bahaha
woit farhah, what exactly are you trying to prove here?
that my butt is big? that i am a TERRIBLE BOWLER?
DAMN YOU BITCH X)
i need a tutor, who is kind enough to teach me? ;) hehe
mat, farhah's brother
he goes to SMKS 9
haha poyo je promote sekolah sendiri -_-"
btw, mat is like THE GREATEST BOWLER EVER
never in my life i seen him to quiet and patient AND FOCUS WHEN DOING SOMETHING O,O
farhah's dad; mr kamil
farhah's mom who i forgot the name -_-"
argh teruk nyer aku ni! i blame the amnesia X)
and farhah's sister; farhah aliah :D
we played two games
neither of it i won, that proves how BAD bowler i am haha
but i got a STRIKE HAHA
nah thats a lie
it was somebody's fault, but hey wtv,
cause after farhah tutor me alil bit,
i actually kinda hit few pins haha :D
its better than ZERO rite? haha :D
ps;i'm the first in the list above
after two games, we had tons of fun :)
eventhough these people make my head spin ALL THE TIME
i always love you guys,
except you mat haha
after bowling, went for movie nite
AWESOME i tell you,
i cried, i did
i cried and cried
farhah!! keep it a secret ok?? don't tell anybody why i actually cried X) haha
oh and ofcourse, i laughed! i laughed and laughed! :D
i love this movie :)
nk tgkk lagi skali boleh?
jom sesiapa! saya belanja XD haha
after the movie,
we went for tgi friday since mat and aliah was craving for pasta lol
cedar salmon pasta
emm my favourite :P
so practically , as i told zaki,
i HAD A HELL OF A DAY
trust me, i did had fun but i dun think i want to get through that stage again :D
except if for my loved ones :) hehe
well there's more but, i want to keep this post short for this.
SHORT LA SGT X)
- fasya doesn't hate thunder, THUNDER hates fasya, muahaha lol
seriously i'm scared of thunder, kan farhah? -_-"
-farhah! pls!! do not! i repeat! do not GIVE up! and never let this thing bring you down!
you have MANY MORE POTENTIAL.
i know this is like a crucial time for you,
first it was me, now its you, how ironic could this get :/
but remember! i love you! we always love you!
and no matter what! stick with who you are! never forget that my dear!
and NEVER LET OTHER PEOPLE CONTROL YOUR LIFE,
haha you know that came from who rite? :P
ps; " FRIENDS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU ARE,
even if I KILL YOU, I KNOW YOU WILL SAY YOU STILL LOVE ME,
and i'm proud to say ' hey THATS MY BESTFRIENDS' "
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.
sorry for the late update, been VERY busy. so i'm kinda tired. thankyou for the people who commented my singing video, and to jojot, GMBR mmg xleh bla X)
conclusion for the EARTH HOUR;
TO ALL MY NEIGHBOUR WHO SUPPORTED EARTH HOUR, i THANK YOU
it shows that at least Malaysia is alil bit decent to be united
but to my neighbour those WHO DIDN'T, especially yang KAYA MCM GILER AND POYO LEBIH
*ish3 fasya, sabar -_-"*
there's only one thing i would like to say to you, DUDUK BAWAH TEMPURUNG EK? pfft
SOMBONG MACAM GILER, SUKA TUNJUK KONON NYER ada byk lagi kemudahan dari family aku.
xkn xde INTERNET? xkn xde TV? xkan xde RADIO PON? pfft
THERE IS NO SUCH EXCUSES
if even the SMALL thing we can't even put our self to do it, what about THE BIG THINGS? pfft
its all relevant facts. * whoa i sound like a lawyer -_-" *
plus if it really didn't work, why EARTH HOUR HAS BECAME GLOBAL?
you know what? this is just a waste of time, i mean, i can actually predict that few among us or EVEN MORE are probably criticising me, well wtv. FREE SPEECH, ever heard of that? lol
plus even KLCC did it. i wish i had a pic of that :)
and my phone, haha :D
yeah, its dark, its mean to be that way, duh.. lol
i was BORED
SOMEONE didn't let me out,
so i had to stay IN my house with no lights for one hour -_-"
oh well, its not like i never had that experience :D lol
which one is better?
and I KNOW
i look like a ghost poster haha :D
coming this summer...
" the GIRL WITH THE PHONE ON"
weirdly enough, dh xde idea -_-" tgh blur
this is my favourite :)
muahaha, i'm getting more evilish by the seconds X)
or am i? ;)
nah, i'm just alil bit NOTTY and cheeky
oh rite farhah, SEXAAY haha
nasib baik mama daddy kt atas, HAHA
well i dun wanna elaborate anymore
next POST!! :D
qoute; " if not NOW, WHEN? if not us, WHO? "
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.
it sometimes scares you and weird you out?
and sometimes it occur more than once?
TURN OFF YOUR LIGHTS
the floor felt cold. i opened my eyes. white, I'm here again. i cleared my eyes hoping that maybe my eyes are deceiving me, hoping that this is not happening again. failed, I'm still here.
i stood up, and tried to find a way out from this space. but the more i walked, the more this space seems larger and longer. i was all alone... in this WHITE SPACE.
determined, i tried to find a way out. from a distance, i saw figures. people. I ran. i ran and ran. they seem so far. but i didn't stop. my heart was pounding, i could feel it aching and all of my body parts became weaker and weaker. I'd thought i was going to fall and faint.
eventually i did. but my eyes were still open. i catch a glimpse of a blurry figure looking at me.
" Farah.. Farah.." a faint voice coming from the figure. it was A YOUNG man. either same age or older than me.
" Help me... " i said. with a little strength left in me, i slowly raise my right hand, hoping for his reflex to grab it.
He just stood there, looking at me.
" I know who you are, you're always here in my dream. "
" Don't give up Farah. "
I didn't know what he was talking about. He reached for my hand. Another figure came. A girl,
i know. She had a medium length hair. and more figures came. He slowly let go of my hand.
Tears began to rolled down my cheek.
" Please, don't leave me again. Where am i? Why is this dream keep happening? "
I gave out all the strength i had to stand up. I feel weak. Too weak.
" Don't give up Farah. I'm not gonna be here. You're all alone. "
" But we still love you. always remember. " a girl speak.
That voices, i felt it in my guts that i Recognise these voices. I know THEM. but who are they?
I saw their sweet smile. They were smiling at me. Why?
They slowly walked away from me and vanished in this bright light. I know i yelled.
But I couldn't hear my voice. My tears became more vigorous, I pushed myself to stand up, in hopes to stop them from leaving.
" Not again. This can't be happening! Please, don't leave me here all alone. I don't understand, why everybody that i love is leaving, why! "
But just when i succeeded on standing up, they were gone. Its like a gun had been shot into my head, my memories were all coming back to me. I KNEW THEM.
" Don't Give Up.. " his voice were echoing in my mind..
I was scared. I was mad. I couldn't reach out to them. I was furious, because i couldn't hold them in my arms. I felt hopeless and useless. But I didn't give up. I did what he told. I ran forward with hopes i might catch up with them. Pictures of my loved ones one by one were in my mind.
Whether my eyes were lying to me or i saw That Boy again. He was far, but i keep on running to get to him. He was just standing there, yet I felt like i wasn't even getting nearer to him. He was smiling. I called out his name. He waved. It was HIM after all. i felt a slight happiness in my heart, i continue running. tears still running down my face.
As i get near, I saw everyone, Everyone was there, standing with him right next to each other. I felt like jumping and holding them in my Arms.
" Farah!! Fasya!! " They were all smiling and laughing, cheering for me.
I could feel my mouth was blooming a smile. AS I nearly reached them, I felt something was wrong. And its bound to happen.
I stretched my hands out to reach to him, and as i did... I FELL. My body seems to be falling down softly and slowly. As i fall, I saw each and everyone that stood there. He was there, She was there, They were There. Everybody Was There.
" Farah.. Never be afraid. We'll always LOVE YOU "
I fall and fall. I felt like i was drowning. I fight with all my might to reach his hand, I slipped and i couldn't reach it. Everybody stand around me as I fall. My hands were still reaching for out, but nothing or no one pull me, For i was too deep.
I felt like i was choking. I couldn't breathe. I hold my neck with hope i could breathe again.
I Inhaled MY LAST BREATHE.
" argh! " I look around. I'm at my room? heh. That dream again.
- this is not a made up story.
- sorry if this confuses you, ask me if you have any problems.
- it was the same, dream.
- i just felt like talking about the dream since i had one last night.
- they said that if you dreamt a person, it means you miss this person so much.
heh, i guess i miss them TOO much...
ps; " My life hasn't been the same since you've Been Gone "
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.
today's the day people.
EARTH HOUR, lets show that Malaysia is UNITED
ps; this post is specialised only for pics of my picnic at Bukit Cerakah with my cuzins.
update of my life can be read in my 'another eposide of my life'.
TURN OFF YOUR LIGHTS
date: 10th of march 2009
venue: swimming pool at bukit cerakah
I'M GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL.
FOR INVITING ME OVER FOR THIS PICNIC.
THANKYOU DADDY FOR AT LAST GIVING ME PERMISSION TO GO.
ps; daddy, i'll always be you're little princess girl. don't worry, no matter how old i've grown, i still love you and i'll always come back to the place i call home :)
eventhough it might sucks sometimes, but thats family bahaha, ily guys muaaah
two nites before picnic day;
hello jojot " hafizah" :)
sayang mama "maklong/azizah"
b-boy cuzin abg dwan "ridhwan"
candid is my favourite part of life :)
oh , hello paklong " hisham" *middle*
LAUGH OUT LOUD :D
i can hear kakya's crazy laugh X)
aww catty, you know i love you :)
feels nice doesn't it :P
miss you :(
picnic day arrived;
abg said aka hubby kakya :P *middle*
nasi lemak maklong BESSSSSSST :D
tambah smpi gemuk! tpi xpe, saya x kicah! :D
a new discovery :)
kitties that have been taken care by ppl at the swimming pool Bukit Cerakah
i just love kitties :)
and tele-tubbies!! :D some stranger's child came up to us while abg said was posing
tele-tubbie: "eh eh, bwat ape tu??"
and i wanted to take a pic of him candid, he realised and spontaneously he smile :D
hey, it rhymes!! haha :D
ppl that never fails to make me laugh and smile everyday
have i told you i love you? haha :D
ps; jojot, tau tak jot pose mcm model, comel sgt sayang :)
mcm misha la ;) haha
kak tati buat mulut, haha :D comel comel comel!
sume dlm gmbr ni comel :)
cat: oit, tepi ar, aku pun nk mandi!
fact aboutfasya: she is scare of BERUK :/
its just a trauma because of past incident -_-"
thats what we are :)
jojot, abg said
hubby and wifey :D
left; a father, soontobe grandfather
right; a husband soon to be a father
similarity? BELLY haha :D
they almost lookalike :D
except jojot kurus keding X) haha
i've post this on my myspace but wut the heck :D
I'M FLYING!! :D
jojot comel, paklong mengacau x nampak haha :D
haha siku sama dia! :D
sorrry jot, x prasan X)
i'm devastated to upload this, but haha :D
ohwell, just for laugh :)
muscle man!! haha VAIN muscle man i'd say :P
kakya muko burok haha :D
kakya: " kakya x ready lagi la!"
i cry and smile every time i look at this pic, heh
bajet COMEL ar tu! haha :D
mmg pun :P
ok, sorry, nk jadi vain sekejap
tak tau jadi ke tak.. -_-"
" OMG! i'm so cute!! haha kan kan?"
ok! weird saying that way -_-"
abg said masih dgn muscle dier -_-"
lawa kan saya tgkp? haha :D
grouching nose is cute ;)
they said i look like a dugong, i resent that! :D
i look like a mermaid haha :D
peace water :D
awesome kan? ;)
jojot, sorry :/
sebab ini je gmbr yg nmpk jot tgh lompat, yang len sume nmpk splash of water haha
tgk tgk! jojot terapung :)
no, no need to fix your monitor, its my camera, there were water on the lense -_-"
but anyway, abg said is going to flying kick you! watch out! :D
i laugh at these pics :D
butt kicking jojot haha
yeah, i can see your peace jojot
haha ignore my weird face haha :D
notes; ABG SAID MMG X PANDAI TGKP GMBR haha
jk, we love you abg said :D
sungguh berani nya kamu fasya untuk post ni :)
credits to OLYMPUS ANTI SHAKER AND WATER PROOF :D
haha nk promore jugak -_-"
well enough swimming pool haha :D
trust me, there were many many more pool pics but i just don't want post it
1; because its too sexy *pointing to abg said* haha
2; and too expose meaning too hilarious it makes your belly hurt laughing at it :D
this segmen of life, i called "flowers are we=4 seasons"
its like in a movie :)
venue: 4 seasons house
ps; its great to have the privilege to be in this place
thankyou paklong :)
bunga2 cinta :D
my as* look big, bahaha :D
boleh lagi pikir psl tu -_-"
drama korea/japan/ ape2 lagi drama dlm dunia ni haha
kakya dgn jojot comel plak! haha celah2 pokok :)
abaikan ku yg tgh berangan tinggi :)
i love you mama :)
notes; PINK is cute and adorable :D
yeah, i love flowers :)
we are all flowers, blooming..
well until we die, but no emoish words for this post pls :)
flowers are beautiful
as well as we are :)
um ps; except bunga tahi ayam -_-" haha
i definitely feel like i'm in a movie :D
we are like the fox and the hound :)
we fight but become close in the end, and unseperateable
kan jojot? :')
oh dear i'm getting all emoish again! :D
i do, i do, i do, i do!
i just LOVE you!
alang cembeng, kakya kaya haha, kaktati keding and jojot comot :)
aww, love :)
as simple as that
sapa kata farah xde gmbr candid kaktati
lihat la kaktati ku yg comel dan keding X)
ramai peminat ni haha :D
i can't help it! X)
the chemistry was there, i just ADDICTED to photography that i HAD to take this pic :)
yey! credits to me! :D
i love jojot, you're one amazing model :)
haha i have to say sorry to everybody because i keep pushing and forcing them to be my model -_-" haha
especially mr moose haha
ok ok, merapu merapu :|
i'll end this segmen of pics with this :) haha
next segmen! :D
Damn, i'm getting all teary, hem..
sorry jojot, minggu ni mmg fasya emotional sgt2 -_-"
a walk to remember :)
i love candid pics X)
oh wait, kebanyakan org yang saya syg, sumenyer saya tgkp gmbr buntot dia as in blakang dia je, kenapa ek? haha
more artistic kot X) haha moving on
motif? dua pokok itu :)
muka mmg sungguh COMEL haha
credits to jojot
well boleh nmpk kan kaki dia haha :D
ish3, peha kamu besar fasya haha :D
told cha i love taking candid pic :)
there was a film making but we don't know what movie is it -_-"
haha but all we know its a malay movie :)
psl hantu lagi -_-"
buntot lagi :)
but i love the plants here
can you see that its like the plant is bowing? :)
haha jojot perasan "daulat permaisuri jojot"
i love flowers :)
one of my dream is to be in a land full of flowers :)
so that i could take pics and run like in the movies
bersama cikgu hafizah dlm segmen 'Pokok'
"farah tau tak pokok ape tu?"
"tak tau :)"
"itu poko balak, tgk betapa tinggi. lama utk dia besar.
tiu sebabnya balak mahal
plus kualiti MMG BAEEEK punya"
*you can see why she gives thumbs up :D *
yup pokok balak mmg mahal, tpi balak org x mahal haha :D
bersama cikgu hafizah, LAGI haha
" tau tak ape tu?"
"nggak tau sayang :)"
"itu BUNGA la haha :D"
ngok punya cikgu :)
haha ily my dear :)
cikgu hafizah masih dgn yapping dia :)
sungguh stunning, mcm music video :)
"eh eh bunga yang kita suka petik masa kat kecik2 dulu kat skola"
"a'a la jojot"
kuning sungguh menarik perhatian kan? :)
thats why i always loved yellow ever since i was little
it started out because of power rangers and tele-tubbies :)
the end :)
well i know its ALOT
more than i should upload
but i just love snapping pics
to me, every moment and every second is important in my life
and i never want to waste it.
i want to keep it in my memories and live it till the day i die
i know, i sound like the type of person that can't let go of the past,
well maybe thats just who i am?
i love memories but i'm also excited for the future, is it wrong? :)
well you spare time for me, i'll spare time for you
always do :)
quiz of the day
what pic is this? :)
siapa pandai dapat seringgit haha :D
- i wonder if it was reffered to me.
if it was, i swear i'll cry and smile like i did when she called me.
haha too happy that i cried, ish3, fasya you're so emoish,
oh well, what can i do? i miss them so much
i hate seeing a friendship die, just like that :/
-words can easily be said, but they don't know how hard it is to let go the ones that you have given your whole life and love to.
when i say i love you, i mean it.
and i'll never take it back, even after 100 years, i still remember them just the way they are, and love them just for who THEY ARE.
fight? why should i remember?
its just life, love is more important than a silly fight.
its close to show that you trully love someone, and i trully love them.
thats how it will be till the day i inhaled the last breath...
ps; " its not that i'm stupid,
I JUST LOVE HIM."
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.