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i don't even know why i'm here right now. i'm such a pathetic loser.
i think i've been in these mess a thousand of times. and yet i haven't wake up.

you know, starting over sounds nice right about now.
but how many start over must i go through ?
how many laps must i run over again ?
how many new hello must i say ?

how long will these goes on ?
everything happens for a reason. and yet we are still searching for the one reason, aren't we ?

they say we shouldn't runaway from the problem. cause it will make yourself look weak and it won't solve the problem.

but honestly, i prefer calling this as AVOIDING.
avoiding from this problem.

unfortunately, the problem is me.
so how am i going to do that ? how to run from your own oneself ?

hey, like i said, i'm so pathetic.

sheesh how emo can i get ? this is getting crapy. good morning world. let me rest in piece, please and thank you.

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before i leave shah alam for good again, i want to write something here first.




HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH SYAFIQAH BINTI IBRAHIM.
at last, you're 19yearsold. it feels like yesterday i was just celebrating my 5yearsold birthday.
and it feel like yesterday i was getting my first heart break. my first bestfriend, my first enemy, my first boyfriend, my first scar, my first bicycle, my first handphone, my first of EVERYTHING.
whoa, thats a mouth full.


by next year, i won't be in the teen life no more.
its a sad thing cause i know that alot of my life experience are based on my teenage memories. don't you feel the same way ? but nothing can be change by changing the face. but everything can be change by facing the changed.

heh, i just want to write out my birthday speech, dont want to babble too much.



Daddy, Omma, Along, Angah, Izzat.
no matter how pain in the butt you guys are, and seriously, YOU ARE UNBEARABLE SOMETIMES, but still, i love you oh so dearly.
i could cry just by hearing you saying i love you to me. i don't even know how to show my gratefulness. everything you have done, it's irreplaceable, unforgettable and priceless.
if i'm still a horrible daughter, forgive me. i am still weak here and there. but i just want you to know, i'm trying hard to make you guys proud. i am.
and thank you that wonderful dinner. Chillis are something new i had to adapted with, but to be honest, the food is great, but i still love TGIF better :)
and thats just an opinion, no matter what you stuffed my tummy with, i still love it anyway, as long its not too spicy -___-'




kak aneez also tag along to celebrate. of course you love free food :P haha just kidding.


angah: "angah nak order ni mama :D"

haha XD sengal la abg aku ni.




adik ku yang G. haha :D
the only boy who will call me crazy but laugh and love me anyway :)



my main course for tonight's dinner ! drum roll please ! (sounds of drum roll)

oh god, i'm drooling all over again.
mutton mushroom, chicken and steak cooked to perfection, Jack cheese all over it with salsa sauce. gosh, em em em ! :9



so yeah, so that's how my celebration went. only a simple dinner. with no cake :(
haha, but i'm thankful no matter what :)
thank you Allah for still letting me breathe another day to celebrate my birthday :)




ps; thank to all who have wished :) i love you oh so much :)
Empire is nice. can't wait for all the stores to open :)
Subang will be my next place to hangout other than Shah Alam from now on :P


FASYA
xoxo

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it's annoying. to see you saying sorry million times but you still don't know what's inside of me. what i really feel.


"we're two human beings who know each other inside out."


stupid. ahp peuh da.. neh ma eum ee ah pha...


they say time heals everything. well if i ever see them again, i'll shoot them dead. cause they are wrong.


FASYA
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i thought going home would be nice. i thought that being home would ease me out from the stress i'm in. well it did. it helped me alot.
and it made me more depressed. why ? cause i've overlook alot of things.
i am totally regretting all the things that i took for granted. i wish that i could go back in the past to fix all the faults that i've done.

i was a terrible friend, a terrible leader, a horrible daughter and most of all, an unworthy lover. wait, if you're gonna criticize on saying how emo i am, you can go stalk somebody's else blog. you don't belong here.
cause this is my blog, and i deserve to write what i feel. and this is what i am feeling now.

i know that this feelings will be gone by tomorrow but i just want to remember this moment and remind myself how it felt like to waste every love that everyone has given me.

these tears i'm shedding, no one knows. but i'm gonna remember each every drops of it. Allah really showed me everything.


I'M SORRY. I really am. I can't even look at you guys anymore. I'm so ashamed.
I'm sorry...

Omma, daddy.
i love you so much. thank you for giving me alot of love. i'm sorry for disappointing you alot. byane. if i could, i want to give you the world. if i could fly to the sky, i'll give you the moon.
Byane...


My class.
each and everyone of you, are all in my heart. the memories of Part 1 are still fresh in my mind.

Lendu friends.
i still remember getting these messages from unknown numbers just to ask me where is the location of their class. and they are not even from my class. haha
Part 1 seem so far now...

Kaklong Huda, Tintin, Syusyu, Amy, Kidot, Farah, Sue, Geeja, Giey, Ann, god i wish i could name all of you, each and everyone of you.
I LOVE YOU OH SO MUCH. you guys never ever judge me from the beginning you said hi to me up until now. god, do know how grateful i am to have you guys ?
ok, this post is getting more gay than i thought. haha :)

you see ? even by thinking of you guys right now, you just change my mood from so emo and sad to so happy and.. huh... just happy. so happy.. :)


i know that asking us to go back to when we Part one is impossible, but..
i just wish that we could be happy like when we first entered UiTM. huh..



Oppa,
byane. i'm a trouble, aren't i ? i'm a horrible wife. hehe
you showed me that love isn't all about caring about other's happiness only. you have to fight to show that you really love them.
you see right through me. no matter how bad i am. and.. huh.. i'm thankful for that..
byane.. i have a strong feeling that i'm going to disappoint you again. byane.. i made alot of mistakes...
i screwed up my life. am i too late to fix it ? ottoke..
oppa, bogoshipuyo.. byane :(




for once, nothing is wrong in my whole entire life, except myself.
i always stret and frut how horrible people are towards me, how horrible people around me made me feel.
but now, the joke is on me.

god i need to sleep.



i love you guys, and i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i love you.


ps; don't forget me and all my kindness because of all my badness.
cause i haven't forgotten yours.
:(


FASYA
xoxo

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did i mention that i'm currently home ? yeah i'm home. SHAH ALAM :)
just for the week, while waiting for my next paper.

i actually feel like shedding tears when i come to realised how much i miss this place called home. along actually showed how he really missed me.
he started babbling about how pretty i am and how cute his sister is. and i'm not saying that it's a bad thing either :D if you know what i mean ;) haha

but when he started bringing up how i deserve a much better guy than YOU-KNOW-WHO (do i really have to mention? hem.. *thinking* nah its unnecessary) so anyway, back to my point,
when he started mentioning how i deserve a much better man to appreciate how beautiful i am, he just slightly throwed me from the sky high -__-'
i mean, why can't he just stop at pretty and cute :(


sigh -___-'
ALONG ALONG.


oh yeah, like i said before, i'm still new with these blogskin. so i'm still editing it.
please bare with me ok ? :)
and yes, i miss blogging very much :)


pss; sometimes, i just can't go on. *tears*


FASYA
xoxo

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i kinda still blur on how to fix it. on my way to fix this.
sorry again -____-'

fasya xoxo

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i don't even know why i'm here right now. i'm such a pathetic loser.
i think i've been in these mess a thousand of times. and yet i haven't wake up.

you know, starting over sounds nice right about now.
but how many start over must i go through ?
how many laps must i run over again ?
how many new hello must i say ?

how long will these goes on ?
everything happens for a reason. and yet we are still searching for the one reason, aren't we ?

they say we shouldn't runaway from the problem. cause it will make yourself look weak and it won't solve the problem.

but honestly, i prefer calling this as AVOIDING.
avoiding from this problem.

unfortunately, the problem is me.
so how am i going to do that ? how to run from your own oneself ?

hey, like i said, i'm so pathetic.

sheesh how emo can i get ? this is getting crapy. good morning world. let me rest in piece, please and thank you.

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before i leave shah alam for good again, i want to write something here first.




HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH SYAFIQAH BINTI IBRAHIM.
at last, you're 19yearsold. it feels like yesterday i was just celebrating my 5yearsold birthday.
and it feel like yesterday i was getting my first heart break. my first bestfriend, my first enemy, my first boyfriend, my first scar, my first bicycle, my first handphone, my first of EVERYTHING.
whoa, thats a mouth full.


by next year, i won't be in the teen life no more.
its a sad thing cause i know that alot of my life experience are based on my teenage memories. don't you feel the same way ? but nothing can be change by changing the face. but everything can be change by facing the changed.

heh, i just want to write out my birthday speech, dont want to babble too much.



Daddy, Omma, Along, Angah, Izzat.
no matter how pain in the butt you guys are, and seriously, YOU ARE UNBEARABLE SOMETIMES, but still, i love you oh so dearly.
i could cry just by hearing you saying i love you to me. i don't even know how to show my gratefulness. everything you have done, it's irreplaceable, unforgettable and priceless.
if i'm still a horrible daughter, forgive me. i am still weak here and there. but i just want you to know, i'm trying hard to make you guys proud. i am.
and thank you that wonderful dinner. Chillis are something new i had to adapted with, but to be honest, the food is great, but i still love TGIF better :)
and thats just an opinion, no matter what you stuffed my tummy with, i still love it anyway, as long its not too spicy -___-'




kak aneez also tag along to celebrate. of course you love free food :P haha just kidding.


angah: "angah nak order ni mama :D"

haha XD sengal la abg aku ni.




adik ku yang G. haha :D
the only boy who will call me crazy but laugh and love me anyway :)



my main course for tonight's dinner ! drum roll please ! (sounds of drum roll)

oh god, i'm drooling all over again.
mutton mushroom, chicken and steak cooked to perfection, Jack cheese all over it with salsa sauce. gosh, em em em ! :9



so yeah, so that's how my celebration went. only a simple dinner. with no cake :(
haha, but i'm thankful no matter what :)
thank you Allah for still letting me breathe another day to celebrate my birthday :)




ps; thank to all who have wished :) i love you oh so much :)
Empire is nice. can't wait for all the stores to open :)
Subang will be my next place to hangout other than Shah Alam from now on :P


FASYA
xoxo

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it's annoying. to see you saying sorry million times but you still don't know what's inside of me. what i really feel.


"we're two human beings who know each other inside out."


stupid. ahp peuh da.. neh ma eum ee ah pha...


they say time heals everything. well if i ever see them again, i'll shoot them dead. cause they are wrong.


FASYA
xoxo

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i thought going home would be nice. i thought that being home would ease me out from the stress i'm in. well it did. it helped me alot.
and it made me more depressed. why ? cause i've overlook alot of things.
i am totally regretting all the things that i took for granted. i wish that i could go back in the past to fix all the faults that i've done.

i was a terrible friend, a terrible leader, a horrible daughter and most of all, an unworthy lover. wait, if you're gonna criticize on saying how emo i am, you can go stalk somebody's else blog. you don't belong here.
cause this is my blog, and i deserve to write what i feel. and this is what i am feeling now.

i know that this feelings will be gone by tomorrow but i just want to remember this moment and remind myself how it felt like to waste every love that everyone has given me.

these tears i'm shedding, no one knows. but i'm gonna remember each every drops of it. Allah really showed me everything.


I'M SORRY. I really am. I can't even look at you guys anymore. I'm so ashamed.
I'm sorry...

Omma, daddy.
i love you so much. thank you for giving me alot of love. i'm sorry for disappointing you alot. byane. if i could, i want to give you the world. if i could fly to the sky, i'll give you the moon.
Byane...


My class.
each and everyone of you, are all in my heart. the memories of Part 1 are still fresh in my mind.

Lendu friends.
i still remember getting these messages from unknown numbers just to ask me where is the location of their class. and they are not even from my class. haha
Part 1 seem so far now...

Kaklong Huda, Tintin, Syusyu, Amy, Kidot, Farah, Sue, Geeja, Giey, Ann, god i wish i could name all of you, each and everyone of you.
I LOVE YOU OH SO MUCH. you guys never ever judge me from the beginning you said hi to me up until now. god, do know how grateful i am to have you guys ?
ok, this post is getting more gay than i thought. haha :)

you see ? even by thinking of you guys right now, you just change my mood from so emo and sad to so happy and.. huh... just happy. so happy.. :)


i know that asking us to go back to when we Part one is impossible, but..
i just wish that we could be happy like when we first entered UiTM. huh..



Oppa,
byane. i'm a trouble, aren't i ? i'm a horrible wife. hehe
you showed me that love isn't all about caring about other's happiness only. you have to fight to show that you really love them.
you see right through me. no matter how bad i am. and.. huh.. i'm thankful for that..
byane.. i have a strong feeling that i'm going to disappoint you again. byane.. i made alot of mistakes...
i screwed up my life. am i too late to fix it ? ottoke..
oppa, bogoshipuyo.. byane :(




for once, nothing is wrong in my whole entire life, except myself.
i always stret and frut how horrible people are towards me, how horrible people around me made me feel.
but now, the joke is on me.

god i need to sleep.



i love you guys, and i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i love you.


ps; don't forget me and all my kindness because of all my badness.
cause i haven't forgotten yours.
:(


FASYA
xoxo

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did i mention that i'm currently home ? yeah i'm home. SHAH ALAM :)
just for the week, while waiting for my next paper.

i actually feel like shedding tears when i come to realised how much i miss this place called home. along actually showed how he really missed me.
he started babbling about how pretty i am and how cute his sister is. and i'm not saying that it's a bad thing either :D if you know what i mean ;) haha

but when he started bringing up how i deserve a much better guy than YOU-KNOW-WHO (do i really have to mention? hem.. *thinking* nah its unnecessary) so anyway, back to my point,
when he started mentioning how i deserve a much better man to appreciate how beautiful i am, he just slightly throwed me from the sky high -__-'
i mean, why can't he just stop at pretty and cute :(


sigh -___-'
ALONG ALONG.


oh yeah, like i said before, i'm still new with these blogskin. so i'm still editing it.
please bare with me ok ? :)
and yes, i miss blogging very much :)


pss; sometimes, i just can't go on. *tears*


FASYA
xoxo

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sorry people, trying to edit my blog skin.
i kinda still blur on how to fix it. on my way to fix this.
sorry again -____-'

fasya xoxo