i wish you'd knew
this is where i stand.
face to face, speechless.
looking into those eyes, where i used to be. where i love to be.
we're so close, yet far apart.
holding back these feelings, the words, the tears,
i fake a smile.
can you hear it? what my heart is crying out for?
" do you know how much i love you? can you feel how much i care for you?"
can you hear it?
" i want you to be happy. i would sacrifice anything just to see you happy. i live for that smile.
i lie, i did cry. "
can you hear it?
" i am cautious in every single thing that i do, just so that you wouldn't misunderstood my feelings.
I'm sorry, I'm just not good at this."
wishing to hold you in my arms, i hold back.
do you know this?
"i don't want to hurt you. i don't want you to hurt anymore.
but why am i feeling this pain?"
I'm screaming. I'm crying. can you hear?
"i love you. that's all i know. i couldn't ask for more.
i wouldn't, what more could i need?"
there's a lot of thing i want, i need to tell. but i can't.
" i want to call you last night, and the other night. there were a lot of things to tell you. i did.
but i look at the phone, pondering in silent that i put it down."
i'm making it hard for you.
" this is hard for me too."
you feel stuck.
" I'm living my life with this love."
you have your side of the story.
" this is my story."
you'll never know.
" I NEVER TELL."
I LOVE YOU.
" can you hear it now?"
...
this is where i stand.
" what are you thinking?"
i startled. i look into those eyes, silently wondered.
i look down and bloom a smile.
" nothing. "
I was crying FOR YOU.
notes;
this might not only be about me.
this might be you, this might be us, this might be anybody.
its been awhile since I've written a post like, just thought that i should let something out.
-listening to we might as well be strangers by keane
jojot.... i miss you :(
~thegirlwhoneverstopcries insideorout
FASYA
Labels: sadness, story of the day
Friday, May 8, 2009 4:07 AM
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.
Posted by — Fasya Ibrahim.